My sweet little girl,
I cannot tell you how much I have treasured this year, even though I’ve been exhausted for most of it. It is absolutely incredible to watch you discover the world around you and to discover the fact that you can interact with it. I’ve watched you go from a tiny, helpless infant to a determined girl with a mind of her own. You obviously have places that you want to go, to explore and all you want from those of us around you is perhaps a hand to chew on or hold on to while you pull up.
You seem to be a very determined, strong girl, sweetheart. It has broken my heart to watch you struggle with the seizures that started at about 9 months, but you have adapted to the point that you frequently go right back to playing as soon as they pass. Sometimes you barely even blink through the seizure. I am quite certain that you will do ANYTHING that you put your mind to, regardless of what it is.
I love you more than words can say and I already admire your grit.
My dear son,
You are now two years old – and quite a little man. I meant to write this letter when you were born, but time has gotten away from me. I love you more than words can say; I hope you always remember that.
I worry about sending you out into the world one day. I can make our home a safe, secure place for you – and I ‘m doing my best to do so – but the world…well, that is a different matter altogether. I know I have years before I send you out – really and truly out – into the world, but I cannot help worrying about it ahead of time. Well, all I can do is the best I can do. I will do my best to prepare you, to teach you what you need to know, to shield and protect you when I can and help you pick up the pieces when I can’t.
I hope you know that I will always love you, no matter what. I want you to know that you can always talk to me, call me when you need me, lean on me. I will always be your mother and you will always be my boy.
I am so proud of you. You are sweet and affectionate, as well as smart and observant. You are growing so fast!
I suspect that this letter will actually be a series of letters, like those I plan on writing for your sister. There is so much to tell you, to share with you and I simply can’t cover it in one letter. Know that you are a loved and cherished member of the family; you now have a sister and a mommy and daddy who love you very much – to say nothing of lots of grandparents, and aunts and uncles.